Wednesday, August 4, 2010

Beginnings, the Middle, and Endings

Every story in life has a beginning, middle, and an end. I am convinced of the same in life. We move through seasons with them eventually ending, both literally through the year and symbolically in time. I think that we are arriving at an end right now and anticipating a future. There are many thoughts of excitement and preparation as well as uncertainty with how things will figure themselves out.

The beginning for us was our relationship together, in December we began life together in Chambersburg as an engaged couple. We have faced many joys together, dancing through the sheer bliss of our wedding, laughing with friends and sharing conversation over coffee's, we began the phase of graduate school on my end and V's job as a youth pastor with much anticipation. Arriving at the middle, we lived and learned. Our growth individually and as a couple was great. I learned that my true love is teaching and horses. Combined they bring me life and energy, its where I want to be. V learned where his own passion lies in teaching. Now we are making choices that are leading to an end and another new beginning. Don't you love that there are plenty of new beginnings?

I have learned that there is much fear in our culture of the unknown. A sense of adventure is something in the rare as of late. As we move into an uncharted path, we realize that there is much uncertainty and we embrace that. My identity cannot be shaped in my life as a graduate student or employee. Placing my security in something other then my belovedness as God's child and living life from that is something I have grown in and have more growing to do. V and I have realized that we both desire family in our lives, not in the shape of children yet, but in sharing the ordinariness of life with those who have been a part of our lives from the beginning. The bond of parent and child; siblings; and those who are like family is underestimated.

I step forward, a bit uncertain of the ground, but trusting the voice that is calling to me in the distance. I know its a voice that I can fully trust. And so I move after His voice.

Tuesday, August 3, 2010

Fast Approaching

Putting words into actions isn't always easy. I am just beginning to learn the power of this. Today begins a whole new adventure into the unknown.

Its good. Scary. Totally crazy. and worrisome. But we are being led by one greater then us.

Monday, August 2, 2010

Even in times of chaos and uncertainty, I am reminded that gratefulness is a choice that I can make daily. Even when its not easy.

Today, I am grateful for:

Early morning coffee with a friend, sharing the uncertainties and joys of life.
A clean house.
Weekends in the country with riding horses through fields and woods.
Conversations with a Mother who has become one of my closest friends.
The faithfulness of an Abba even when I don't know what tomorrow might bring.
Dreams, hopes, and anticipation of future days.

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